I look back and see the different ways each of my children and my husband reacted to the cancer. I would like to share their reactions and comments with you now.
7 Years Later
I asked my family, “What was the hardest thing about the cancer?” “Are you a better person today?” What did your learn from this?” Their responses:
Morgan 25, “I was terrified I would wake up and you would be gone; there would be no place on earth where you would be.” “I learned to stand up for myself and the relationship with my sisters and Dad grew stronger.”
Amber 26, “Mom, you just quit living and doing things.” “You weren’t the strong, steady person I had come to rely on.” “I had always heard about God, but I started to see God.” “Up until cancer I had gone on your’s and Dad’s faith, now because of cancer I have my own faith.” “Everything was about God; the statistic continued to be bad and I saw it had nothing to do with you or statistics, but God. Over and over God would beat the statistics; I saw His power.”
Rachel 23, "This is hard for me to talk about, but I couldn’t imagine losing you.” “I was so rebellious, so afraid; the cancer opened my eyes and helped me see the truth.” "I wish I had handled things differently, I wish I had been stronger, but looking back I see how strong I was and how strong I have become."
Rebekah 20, “You were always so tired. You would be here one day and gone the next.” “Life seemed to move in slow motion.” “I learned not to run from my problems, but face them. Don’t freak out, don’t look to the future, but live for today.”
Daryl, “Just you asking me this question makes me want to cry.” “I was most afraid of being alone; not hearing your voice; I would miss all the goofy things you do and how much I would get frustrated with you.” “God taught me to appreciate the little things.” “It brought the kids and me closer and taught us to rely on Him.”
'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.'