"My Power is Made Perfect in Weakness"

Before cancer I was a ‘ball of fire’ and a ‘whirlwind’ rolled into one. I would have the kids schooled, the house in order, supper planned all before 10:00 in the morning. If a difficult task was sat before me, with the help of my children we would knock it out in record time and do a good job. The harder the task, the more ‘we’ enjoyed it. I called the difficult tasks ‘Character Building Times.” I’m not always sure my children felt about this like I did, but it was ok, it built character. My children used to say, “Mom, if they would put you on juvenile community service detail there would be no more crimes committed by juveniles and the community would look really good.”

Times have changed, I have changed. Cancer has extinguished the ‘ball of fire’ and stilled the ‘whirlwind.’ My heart desires to tackle a task big or small, but my body doesn’t comply.

II Corinthians 12: 8-9 “Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."

I, like Paul have desired a physical healing from the Lord. Down deep in my heart I want to know “That His grace is sufficient for me, and His power is made perfect in my weakness.” I want to be able to “boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” But I haven’t reached this place yet. I can’t even imagine the deeper relationship I will have with the Lord when I accept this.